I suppose it is time.
Time to tell my our story of infertility.
You may want to sit down, this could be a while….. 😉
After a year of marriage, filled with ups, downs, and all arounds.. we decided that we would love to start a family. Sure, we had fur babies but we wanted an extension of ourselves. A little being.. a little of me, a little of him.
“That won’t be to hard!”… or so we thought…
Fast forward nine months later.. No baby.
And to the doctor we go.
We started at the naval hospital. The doctor was rude. She questioned my desire and doubted my ability to parent a child.
So I asked for a referral. And she gave it to me.. seeing as how it had already been nine months with no success.
So we decide to give it six more months.. No baby.
Our appointment with the fertility specialist was scheduled for the monday after my 21st birthday. Perfect. I’ll have my fun and then I’ll prepare to be a mom!
The appointment went well. It was decided that I have Endometriosis. For those who don’t know what this disease is… Allow me to share.
Basically.. lesions. All over the place. Uterus. Fallopian tubes. Ovaries. Just everywhere. And it is PAINFUL.
So to fix this wonderful endometriosis, I had what is called a laparoscopy & hysteroscopy. It was an awful surgery that took much longer than it should have and ended with me ALMOST dying. Scary stuff but I am ALIVE! And they believe that they were able to eliminate all of the lesions!
So after healing from the beast of a surgery I had, I underwent what is called a Hysterosalpingogram (HSG for short). For this procedure, a dye is inserted into the uterus through the cervix (big words, I know) and a real time X-ray visualizes the flow into the uterus, through the fallopian tubes, and into the ovaries. Basically, they want to know if there is any blockage that an egg could not pass.
So no blockages for me! Very good news.
I then had a slew of tests that required a donation of a good amount of blood.. all of which came back normal. And of course.. my husband had some tests of his own.
Everything looked good and it was time to begin treatment!
Our first treatment was called “Ovulation Induction”. Basically.. I take a few pills. My follicles (with eggs inside) grow (inside the ovary). I have an ultrasound. I take an injection. And we get down to business.
A few months of this goes on and still we have nothing.
So we move on to something called “Mini Stim”. This treatment is just the same but with HEFTIER drugs.
A few months of this.. still nothing.
We meet with the doctor, who does not understand why this has not worked for us, and he explains that we may benefit from IUI (Intrauterine Insemination.. think turkey baster) or IVF (Invito Fertilization.. think test tube).
At this point.. nobody but us knows about our situation. It is tearing us apart inside and we need to talk to someone. So we call that wonderful MIL of mine and lay it all out. Of course, she had already suspected it but we now have confirmed it. I’m not sure if it was embarrassment or what.. but we felt as if we could’t tell anyone. But now we had a support system and we felt a little better.
At this point, my husband was scheduled for a 7 month deployment. We felt as if it was a sign to take a break. And take a break was exactly what we did. Then I was accepted into nursing school and we extended our break just a little more.
But then we couldn’t handle it anymore. We made an appointment in June of this year and the doctor had suggested a NEW treatment called “Mega Stim”. Sound familiar? It is indeed the same treatment we had tried before but with even HEFTIER drugs than the heftier drugs. I’m not sure we are convinced.
We have decided that IVF will be our next option. But of course, our insurance does not cover this treatment since it is considered “elective” and “not essential”.
So we will have to wait. Until we have the money to undergo this procedure and MAYBE.. just maybe finally fill that empty hole in our hearts. Hopefully it will be sooner versus later but until then, we keep trying 🙂 With no expectations.
And we hold on to hope..
So that is our story. If you have questions about ANYTHING pertaining to infertility or our story, I will answer. It helps for me to talk about it. And now the whole WORLD knows that we are a part of the 7.3 MILLION people who suffer from this heartbreaking disease. And.. it is okay to talk about it. 🙂
(On our 5th anniversary. Happy as ever ❤ )
Thank you for reading.